WTF is wrong with me??? I think there’s something wrong. Something broken. Something not functioning properly. I just don’t know what yet. All I know is I felt like shit all day. All fucking day. For no reason. NO FUCKING REASON. WTFFFFFFFFFFF!!!!!!!!!!! GO AWAY FFS. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. Leave me in peace. What have I ever done to deserve this.
I try. Belive me I try. I don’t always succeed. But I try. So I make mistakes. Am I not human. If you prick me do I not bleed. So … now what … I’m not perfect so I don’t deserve shit. Says who.
Why not ? Why shouldn’t I have what I want. I’m not asking for much. Maybe that’s the problem. Low expectations low results. Yup that’s part of the problem. Another part is that I’m not thinking of myself enough. Fuck them. Fuck the rest. FUCK YOU !!! It should be more about me. I wouldn’t be like this if it wasn’t for that. I’d be happy … happier … maybe. Most likely. But would I want that ?
Why should I have to change. Why can’t I have what I want the way I want it. No compromises.
No more compromises. Instead of numbing down I’ll be more extreme. More me. Less bullshit. Less masks.
Fuck it. Maybe that’s the lesson.
Fuck it then. FUCK IT ALL.